Fail, reset

I failed, so I start again. Day 01 – Sept 18 – Sigh, I almost feel like a joke. But I am not ready to give up yet. The best part of the last three days was that I could live with all these things that were only harming me so far. I failed so bad, I got upset and thought the easiest way to make myself feel better was to smoke. Right after I felt really sick and wanted to distract myself which led me to log on to Instagram.  Nothing helped and I realised I’ll have an ice … Continue reading Fail, reset

No turning back

Attachment. Are humans inevitably to feel attached to things? What happens when you do lose something that you thought you would never lose, and you feel nothing? Maybe just relief. Like lightning of a burden, like finally waking up and realising the answer to your problem was always there, was so simply, was just waiting to be seen. I have always quite honestly found myself more attached to things and people to an almost unhealthy level. That coffee mug I HAVE to have my morning cuppa every day That one pen I carry with me for important work That one … Continue reading No turning back

Routine is not Rut?

The week’s been quite reflective. It seems to me, that every 20 something year old goes through a phase where they realise that there was always so much beauty in you, in me and in everything and for whatever reason we believe the lies that are fed to us, until one day you look at an old photograph  and wonder why you did not believe in yourself enough. No, I’m not going to go off on a rant about self-love and self-appreciation, trying to convince you and me that you are beautiful, you always have been, it’s just been a … Continue reading Routine is not Rut?

Chaos is Inherent…

You have everything under control until you don’t Maybe life is not about having everything under control While there is order in the madness what does one do when they feel compelled to have it all figured out? We are all creatures of habit. Blessed with the ability to think but cursed with the need of heeding to what the heart wants. They say nothing is over until you stop trying, and I know life isn’t all about the sunshine, but what do you do when you prefer to stay shivering in the rain for five minutes of sunshine, hoping … Continue reading Chaos is Inherent…

You’ve only got to Start

Eight months ago, I moved to a city I never lived in not just armed with a degree in journalism, but also a severe back injury I wish I had paid more attention to back then. While living in denial seems like the easiest thing to do, reality isn’t far behind and will be sure to knock you out before you comprehend what hit you. That’s exactly what happened, about a month into my “adulting” what i kept ignoring as sore muscles jolted me out of sleep at 3 am and I could move nothing but my upper body. Thinking … Continue reading You’ve only got to Start

Note to self- Hey you!

  The hardest part is to start?  After days of trying to streamline what my next post should be about, I’m just going to plunge right into it. No carefully chosen topic, no planning or scheduling because this is not a post am making for my blog to grow, am writing this because the world is stepping into a new year in less than a week,and for some reason whenever something begins or ends I have to write, it’s like I can’t stop something from bothering me if I don’t put it down in words. So here goes… 2016 has … Continue reading Note to self- Hey you!

What you and I Need?

  Thoughts on Gandhi’s Principle of Simplistic living   What we need to survive? While any sane person would choose simplicity,it’s easier said than done. While most of us might stand and even argue for simplistic living, when it comes to implementing it in one’s lives it seems like a far fetched idea. Who do we have to blame for this attitude? Our society? Ourselves? One cannot say. Today, most of us are caught up in this rat race to be better than the other. Competition isn’t oneself, but the next person. Man long ago seemed to have traded peace … Continue reading What you and I Need?