Am not a new year new me person, but I sometimes am too reflective for my own good!
I love making lists, crossing things off them and maintaining a journal about whatever I feel like. This habit has more to do with my obsession with stationary and less to do with all the emotionally healthy benefits maintaining a journal should have.
The idea of maintaining a diary was imbibed at a young age by my mother who felt I was never an expressive child. Maybe growing up I have come to acknowledge that I bottle up every damn thing eventually ending up in one BIG mess!
While I don’t think keeping one has helped me get any better at letting my emotions flow, I admit the only two diaries where I made honest entries were burnt using lighter liquid, its remains flung in the trash far away only because I happened to re- read things I had written and I thought it was really whiny and unnecessarily negative!
Anyway as I was getting back on track and needed a sure shot way of holding myself accountable, I came across the concept of bullet journaling. Some of the templates I saw were so so pretty I was just super eager to have a pretty book like that of my own! (AGAIN, stationary) Here’s a link to some beautiful ideas:
I’m artistically challenged btw! As much as I’d love to paint beautiful landscapes and draw inspiration from Pinterest to doll up my living space. I absolutely am TERRIBLE at it! A former zoology student I have been asked to re-submit papers on multiple occasions not because I could not wrap my head around complex biological terms but because my sketches were nothing close to looking like human organs.
I once had to redraw a sunflower to clear my botany paper. I was 18 years then.Since that day I have stuck to things that I can do a decent job at and never attempted to try art! Anyway, stationary gets me super excited so along with getting back to keeping a diary I have tried to incorporate some bulletin ideas. Here’s a peek into what my March habit tracker looks like:
It has been two months now and am going to follow a basic version of this because a tracker goes a long way and helps you find out where you have been slacking and how you can realistically overcome a roadblock. For example, I observed I tend to spend more during the weekends even if I home-cooked all my meals and avoided drinking. A walk never is just a walk as I used to buy things I absolutely do not need just because I had the time to browse stores and had cash with me. Once I figured a pattern I stopped withdrawing cash, left my cards at home and carried with me only the bare minimum I might need in case of an emergency while I was out. A few weeks of following this, I tossed out all the extra trash I wasted cash on, and now don’t even get tempted to indulge in mindless things anymore. ( yay! Am not nearly broke and dying for payday or contemplating asking money at home by the end of the month)
Tracking my habits overall has given me a much more positivity about things, no matter how my day goes, as I look at the various charts and make an entry into my journal, it gives me hope. Hope that I can try again tomorrow and that it is never too late to start over.